2005: Part the Third

unfortunately our phone line went out last night and i wasn't able to post. but no one is reading anyway, so what's the rush. :-/ it's already the first of the year, but what else happened in '05?

i would say this has been a very difficult year for me in many ways. of course i've already mentioned a few school, work, and moving related issues. but spiritually and emotionally it's been trying as well. i've found out a lot about myself. during the past year, and especially this semester, i've realized just how important my faith in christ is. i think my verse of the year is one found in philippians, "be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication let your requests be made known to god, and the peace of god which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in christ jesus." this verse has given me so much comfort the last few months. but not only this verse, all of them! i can't even fathom how precious and wonderful the entirety of god's word is, for encouragment, conviction and instruction. this stuff is the whole reason for living. i know that some of those who may read this would disagree, but this is what it means to me. when i try to live without christ there is nothing but emptiness. it doesn't matter how much fun i have, or how hard i work, or how much money i make, nothing is satisfying. however, when i'm spending time praying and reading the bible and seeking god, everything is brighter and worth living, even when things are going badly. there's so much of this that i know in my head, and it's finally becoming clear. i'm learning it for myself, experiencing it for myself. i just wish i could learn it faster. i wish i wasn't so slow in understanding god's blessings. i'm also incredibly thankful for his patience and willingness to teach me anyway. and guess what? i'm not going through half the struggle many people i know are tasting. if only we could take to heart the famous words of jesus, "blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted..." (matt. 5:3,4) afterall, christ came to heal those who were sick, cuz who needs to be made well who is already healthy? i think i'll take my trials as they come if i can have the comfort of jesus to support me. and then hold onto him forever.

that's all i got for now. everyone have a wonderful new year. try not to break those resolutions before the week's out. come on, let's go for a record... 10 days... ;-) anway happy 2006. "god bless you, every one."